After losing my Angela, I've been going through the motions. There are a range of emotions to go through when you lose someone you love, as it turns out. Lots of ups and downs.. "This isn't happening!" sad, angry, sentimental. I'm allowing myself to mourn my friend and actually FEEL it. Historically, I've been the type to numb pain rather than face it.. so I think it's really healthy. Bennett has been a good distraction, and he reminds me to smile and treasure each moment. He is my heart after all. Life keeps moving, and you have to go with it's natural flow. I still mourn the loss of my friend every day.. and at times, I hang my head and shed a tear for her. But even in this sad time, we have these beautiful moments. San Diego has been absolutely gorgeous and I have been basking in the sun. I am thankful to be back in the place that my soul is most at home.. in the California sand. Gives me a certain peace.
In other news, I've been in organizing mode since the new year. We live in a tiny beach house, and my desire is to be minimal and organized. I've got an urge to pare down my closet to the absolute necessities. I made a stack of my most used items.. I live in about 12-15 favorite pieces, and the rest is just fluff. A memory from that one night, worn once.
I'm tempted to box everything up and leave just those favorite items in my closet. Will be back later in the week with a post of what this Mom's absolute essentials are. It'll be fun to look back and see what my Stay at Home Mom Uniform was 10 years from now.