Yesterday was one of those "terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days." Remember that book? It started with Bennett not sleeping well for 2 nights in a row. We're talking up every.single.hour. I woke up in the "I have nothing to wear mood." Watch out! I shampoo'd my hair with conditioner and tried to condition my hair with shampoo. When I turned off the hot water, running late already, a large spider jumped out at my feet from my folded towel. I was still bitter about having a sort of "dud" birthday this year. It all went down hill from there. By 9 am, I was calling my mom in tears and wanting her to talk me back from the edge of a mental cliff. The entire day went on in this fashion. By the time we were all home and ready for dinner, I was a total grump and feeling like being a rotten brat. Then I looked in this sweet smiling boys eyes, nuzzled his little neck,
took in his baby scent, and snuggled that squishy body. I suddenly felt so stupid. Am I really letting the most trivial things "RUIN MY DAY?!" It's funny how things never seem as bad when you hold your very own gorgeous and perfect baby in your arms. I am so lucky. I am in this amazing time in my life, and I sometimes just forget to soak in the moment, enjoy this little bug.. because before I know it he'll be gone.. the baby will be grown, he'll move away, and I'll CURSE myself for even thinking any day was a "terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day." Back to my old mantra.. BE HERE NOW.
Susan Soares
11/16/2012 05:27:04 am
You are very mature for your age. I'm proud of you!!! Comments are closed.
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